[Breathe esay...]

GP paper. haha. Tis a joke. It seriously ain't funny. I think our dictator wants to conduct some major mass evacuation of fellowship. My life sentence been sent. hahaha. Nvm

I once asked a best friend of mine

"What would u do if we love the same guy at the same time?"

She replied w/o hesitation "I would give way to u. Cos i know our friendship is forever and he is not."

I smiled. Cos i realised the guy would not be left with any of us loving him.

ooh well. Back on track. Thats what i'm gonna do for u too my dear^^

My another best friend suspects her crush likes me. Similiarly, with reference to the case study above. haha. I'll be true to my word. "I will not like him even if he does. Cos i know our friendship is forever and he is not."

U mean too much to me. I'm not going to give u up for any him yeah. *hugz*

I realised i'm so blessed to have so many angels of mine loving me. ^^

Finding reasons to smile today has never been easier. With the exception of having to mug for history. haha =P *hugz*

I'm missing someone..hmmz...

Admist the studying and furious copying of notes in a desperate attempt to consize them and make them more succinct for my easy understanding I decided to take a much needed break to blog. Because., i reckon my head is gonna roll this time. My note taking is never ending, i never stop printing stuffs and now i'm still comtemplating whether i should send John Merrimen's book to the xerox.

haha. whats so bad about that u wonder? ooh well. it HAS got to do with the fact i haven't sat down to read any of them! Gawd! i'm so dead. My head really ish gonna roll..tuk tuk tuk,,hahaha

Ooh man. Mininum time. Maxinum work. and i am sick. sheesh. I've never been luckier. haha. Looking left for a brief moment. My eyes are met with the thick layer of notes i just printed for 1 hr! Imagine. The number of trees sacrificed in that hr. Urgh, Talk about saving the environment. I'll stick to supporting the "Save The Pandas" campaign. That way, my conscience won't be placed at such a diffult spot. John Merrimen is also on my left and so is this lil' book of beauty tips. haha I bet its gonna be the best reading this week.

Man, i'm so scared. End of this year. I'm gonna lose some friends either by thme leaving me or by me leaving them. I just gotta pass my promos. I have to. I want to? haha

Gawd. Where is he. haha. i wanna see him. Tuesdays..he used to be in the library second floor. He's never been here since weeks b4 his prelims. I wanna talk to him, kinda sadis but i really do wanna hear his voice. I tell ya. His voice has the ability to make me euphoric. haha. I just wanna talk to him. He's not going to come back after this yeah. and school's cancelled tomorrow. Hurray. I can study! But, i can't see him no more. -sigh-

I just wanna see him and talk to him. Is that too much to ask for? hahaha.

ooh ya, i think i'm over that 'na kou jing'..haha. i dun think la. i really have! My friend told me his story. and..nahz. Will update u babes on this when we meet yeah! =D miss u all so muchy!.

To u sweeties..study hard yeah! I'm always here for u. Remember that yeah. *hugz* to ya if u are feelign stress. *muakz* thanks for bringing so much joy laughter and comfort and..Happiness in my life angels ^^

Josey..Casse..JY If u are reading this. Thank you. haha. Smiling? I hope so. =D

Hey. Dodgeball and POPCORN rocks! =D

hahaha. i'm back. ooh well. i think i'm gonna change my blog add.

haha. My blog address isn't the most creative or intersting wan la. and i think it desperately needs a revamp!
haha. yeap. i'm blabbering incoherent nonsense here because of the fact darling Casse has 'requested' okok. she demanded a new entry. hahaha. i realised my best friends & the poeple i love have been reading my blog..hahaha *hugz* *Muakz* u to Angels..=D haha. yeap this blog has served its purpose..=)

haha. ok that accounts for the plain layouts and empty wishlist..haha cos i dun noe how to create one. the spoilt dashboard..gawd, which i could have sworn i put one in. the cow symbol which disappeared and the music background which has mysteriously disappeared TWICE. URGH. i sucked at this computer whizz kid stuff.

ok. i realise. i need a new blog and a new pretty lovely blog. ooh well.. when i do go around creating one. which may be soon..haha..i'll post it up and report to all my angels about it yeah! *promise* =D

*hugz* haha. had so much fun @ TP yesterday. Gawd. haix. i'm starting to feel i REALLY made a wrong choice about coming MJC. My aspirations i realise don't lie here but, i'm stuck here. HOW lovely.

Hey M.A.D4 Angels sorry i couldn't join u sweeties yesterday. Gawd, on my way home yesterday i realised i miss u all so. Man, how i wish the promos is nothing but yeah, nothing. haha. i wish it'll go away and for MJC to return my life back to me. - KICK ME OUT - and make me realise i suck would not really help, so i'm left with no choice but to work freaking hard, lose my life, lose myself, continuing rantling about how MJC has ruin me, try too hard to be happy and just live with it.

OOH man. NICE. again for the countles time this year. "What have i gotten myself into?"

I love my families, my pals and my religion. *muakz* u guys rawk!

haha. this enuff now casse? =P *muakz*

CHRISTINA AGUILERA - VOICE WITHIN LYRICSYoung girl, don't cry
I'll be right here when your world starts to fall
Young girl, it's all right
Your tears will dry, you'll soon be free to fly
When you're safe inside your room you tend to dream
Of a place where nothing's harder than it seems
No one ever wants or bothers to explain
Of the heartache life can bring and what it means
When there's no one else
Look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend
Just trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength
That will guide your way
If you will learn to begin
To trust the voice within
Young girl, don't hide
You'll never change if you just run away
Young girl, just hold tight
And soon you're gonna see your brighter day
Now in a world where innocence is quickly claimed
It's so hard to stand your ground when you're so afraid
No one reaches out a hand for you to hold
When you're lost outside look inside to your soul
When there's no one else
Look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend
Just trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength
That will guide your way
If you will learn to begin
To trust the voice within
Yeah...
Life is a journey
It can take you anywhere you choose to go
As long as you're learning
You'll find all you'll ever need to know
You'll make it
You'll make it
Just don't go forsaking yourself
No one can stop you
You know that I'm talking to you
When there's no one else
Look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend
Just trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength
That will guide your way
If you will learn to begin
To trust the voice within
Young girl don't cry
I'll be right here when your world starts to fall


Young girl don't cry.

There he is. Should i talk to him?? *urgh* haix. Guess not.

Yet again, i prove myself to be a big time loser.

You go Mae.

ooh well, so many things to say. but i dun wish to type em' now. haha. Giev u all time to anticipate hahaha. what nonsense again from me. lalala. woohoo Life been good! =) Had a family gathering last night..=D Mummy's birthday! =) manage to catch up with my pals..haha. yeap.

Looking for reasons to smile has never been easier..wil be back! =)

woohoo!! Family and pals~!! LOVE u all so much! *hugz*

I just hate it being online. haha.

haha. i sound like some sadistic & eccentric freak la. haha. i dunoe. now i am in sch using the com. lolx. i rather use the com in school than the com at home. i dunoe. i just feel as though when i'm using the com at hm i tend to get seriously down and melanchonic. After using the com, i would then reprimand  myself for idling online a.k.a wasting my life.

Gawd! haha. I sound worng.

Yeap, so my goal for the new day to resist going online at hm and make full use of my time. Does that mean i can't see him online anymore? okok. i admit. Partially, the reason of me going online at night is because of you! *urgh* haha seeing you online makes me feel euphoric? Nahz, too strong of a word. Maybe a tinge of happiness la. =P

haha. Here comes the annoying part. I dun even bother chatting with u when u're online. What a loser i am. hahaha. wheee..

 
Yeah! Sunday was so muchy fun!! =) Gawd, i feel so blessed and ecstatic when i recalled that day! M.A.D4 outing!! We went cineleisure and hang around there and HMV =) Bought a lovely blue ring so did Dolly! =D Our precious! HeE! *hugz* Love u all lotsa! Then, we went to watch Mean Girls. haha. Awesome movie. Tickled me silly! =) haha! We took lovely pictures too. But i wasn't really ready cos i was toking to a teacher confirming sum ELDDS suffs when the pic was being taken..haha =x But it turned out lovely still. =) Tomorrow yeah! gonna meet my darlings again! =) Can't wait! Gonna rush down to HMV to meet them. *grins* Love u all lotsa! *hugz*

Got a long day of school today...Homework undone. haha. the consequences of turning in early. =) Nvm, i'm happY!

haha. Right! Finding reasons to smile has never been easy! ^^

 

Life is really drudge.
 
Everyones starting to dread school.
 
so am i.
 
I dread you too. What am i to do with you? haha. Gawd. Sometimes, i really feel so near and yet so far. Guess he will never know...
 
I just knew it. It was gonna turn out to be another deplorable mistake. I still made the mistake, i tried hard not to. I really did. haha.
 
 I know i shouldn't but i wouldn't cos i myself know i couldn't.
 
Ooh well. sigh. 
 
-A favourite mistake of mine-
 
Trying to be happy. haha. Borrowed Andrew Matter's "How to be Happy" book. ha. I'm a real sad case.
 
For entitling myself to feel miserable. Shame on u Mae.